And so, it starts.
I’ve been kind of seeing someone. On the one hand I am very happy, because it’s been pretty great so far. On the other hand, I feel apprehensive because while relationships can bring out the very best in me, they can also bring out the very worst. I am not a secure person and I am now thinking why the hell does this guy like me, and why is he even giving me the time of day? The bottom line is even though my self confidence has increased by leaps and bounds from even just a few years ago, it is nowhere near there yet. On a good day, I still think I’m stupid, and boring and ugly. I’m not sure what the best way to combat this is; I’m still going to therapy, still trying to curb my bad thoughts. I can tell myself that I’m not awful and maybe even believe it in my head, but how can you control your feelings? How do you make yourself feel that you are worth just as much as the next person? Let the self-sabotage begin.
